I want to be a HOT Mom!

This week Ive started a whole new journey. Ive started a fitness program called P90X. I'm so excited to get healthy and fit... after years of neglecting my body with shitty food and being lazy.

Ive always been a bigger girl and since having kids, especially since the twins I feel SO disgusting with myself. Ive never been as overweight as I am right now, I don't like being naked, or anyone seeing me naked, Iam DREADING summer.. Tanks tops, and shorts  *cringe* . I NEED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS! Iam tired of feeling like this about myself and I feel like my weight has really affected my confidence to do anything. I think doing this program will help me gain the confidence I need to be a successful person and not be so scared to try new things. I always quit everything. I will not do that this time. I cant.

When I first stumbled across this program I wasn't sold right away. It seemed like it was made for people who were familiar with working out on a regular basis and who are not over weight. But the more I looked into it and read and watched success stories from women who started out just like me... I got SUPER excited and wanted it right then!! This program is INTENSE! And that might be an understatement. Its broken down into 6 workouts per week that are about an hour each for 90 days. It also has its very own nutrition plan.

I first tried to convince Aaron to do it with me, you know for the support we could do for each other, and it would me nice for us both to become fit and healthy together. But with his crazy work schedule he just wasn't interested in committing to anything else right now.  I ended up getting my sister interested in the program and she agreed to do it. So we now have each other for support. I think a big part in being successful is having someone who will motivate you and push you when you don't think you can do it.

Yesterday January 25th was Day 1 :

The first part of the workout was back and chest. It basically consists of alternating different forms of push ups and pull ups with weight training in between. Ive NEVER done a single 'real' push up or pull up EVER. So this was incredibly difficult. I did the entire workout with modifications and even that was very hard.

The second part was ab ripper X. And It was SO hard. My abs are pretty much mush since from the twin pregnancy and I have next to no ab strength. Im looking forward to improving this.

Im SO sore today!

Today January 26th Day 2:

Today was Plyometrics... HOLY CRAP Its CRAZYYYYY! I have never sweat so much in my life! Great workout. My legs feel like jello now.

Ive decided that next week I need to start working on in the mornings. Ive been doing them at night after I`ve put the twins to bed, Marleigh likes to bounce around with me while I'm doing the workout but i find she gets in the way or is ordering me around to get her a snack or a drink or whatever. I think working out in the morning would be nice without distraction, that way I could workout shower and eat breakfast before they are up.

I'm still getting used to the nutrition plan. Its very different and planned out which I'm not used to.

I'm normally really bad for eating 3 meals a day and drinking enough water. But so far I think Ive been doing good. I haven't cheated.. other then a small square of dark chocolate. I'm a chocolate junkie so this is good for me. lol

Ive decided I'm not going to revel my current weight or stats here. I'm going to keep it personal at this point.