On November 30th 2010 we found out we were expecting TWINS!
I though this would be perfect occasion to talk about our journey to twinhood and beyond.
In late August 2010 we decided that we would start trying for another baby. Marleigh was 2 and a half and well on her way to becoming a very independent little girl. We always knew we wanted more then one child, and it was also important not to have a too big of an age gap. So it was time!
I researched alot the months prior and decided that I wanted to have a home water birth with the next baby, it just seemed like the right thing to do. I would often day dream and plan how things would go in my head. *sigh*
Marleigh was our 'Oopsie' baby - after months of being not so careful in the birth control department we got pregnant with her in July of '07. A blessing in so many ways .
We had never had to 'try' for a baby before. So we had no idea how long it was going to take. Neither of us expected to get pregnant the first month. I decided I would order some ovulation tests and give them a whirl and maybe it will help the whole process out. And it did.
After the first month of trying.. I was PREGNANT!
We found out on September 22nd 2011. I was 11 DPO and the positive was very faint -but there none the less. I decided to wait a few days and take another test. That one ended up being positive too as did the clear blue digital test. I started to get sooo excited and knew that this baby was going to be born in our home!
We were VERY excited. Marleigh was going to be a big sister!!!
The Estimated due date was June 4th 2011!!
The next few weeks came and went and I was SICK!!!! I was so incredibly nausaus all day and night. I blew up the airbed in the living room so I could lay on it all day and watch movies and play with Marleigh, but standing and moving around.. eating.. watching the food network.. everything made me dry heave.. and sometimes straight up heave!
I was sick every day... I remembered back to my pregnancy with Marleigh and my morning sickness wasn't at all THIS severe. I figured every pregnancy was different... or maybe its a boy!
I was sick up until 15 weeks. then it slowed down and eventually stopped.
We had chosen to be in the care of a midwife for the duration of the pregnancy and birth. During our first meeting together she asked me about my dates and I was 100% certain of everything but she insisted on sending me for an ultrasound just to take a peek and make sure of everything. I had no problem in that.. seeing our little bean for the first time!! HOW EXCITING!
So the day of the ultrasound was HERE! I was 13 weeks 3 days pregnant.. I was SOOO excited. I love ultrasounds! I kept asking Aaron.. ' ARE YOU EXCITED???' he would calmly respond ' not as excited as you'... MEN ugh! lol
So this is how I remember the appointment going... it all happened to fast, some of it is a complete blur.
We had one of the last available appointments of the day. Aaron and Marleigh and myself walked in the office and the waiting room was empty. The receptionist took my health card and my info and took us right on into the ultrasound room. The lights were dim.. and I remember thinking that I had never been in a ultrasound room this spacious before. It was nice!
I looked around to see a flat screen on the wall facing the exam table.. OMG I WAS SOOO EXCITED!! I WOULD GET TO SEE EVERYTHING!!!
So the ultrasound tech guy.. lubed up my belly and plopped the wand on there....
Me: Oh My God!
Tech: Oh Looks like there are two in there..
Me: WHAT!!! Oh my God! Oh my God! holy shit!! * SOBBING*
Aaron : I knew it!
The moment the wand touched my belly I could instantly see two little fetus' bouncing around. I knew instantly what I was seeing but suddenly felt like I was dreaming. I became scared, anxious, happy, sad, terrified, shocked all in a split second. Everything started to spin...nothing would come out of my mouth other then 'Oh My God'.. I simply could not form any other words.
The Tech continued to scan and briefly checked the anatomy of the babies while I continued to bawl my eyes out, He told us they were fraternal, they were in their own sacks and had their own placentas... I could not believe what I was seeing.. twins... holy shit!
Aaron sat there smiling.. he didn't seem taken back, or shocked at all. He seemed over the moon happy!! He had mentioned at some point before the ultrasound ' maybe its twins'.... jerk is always right!
Once he was done.. I stumbled up from the bed, attempted to walk straight as I was shaking so bad from my nerves being all haywire. The tech printed a few pictures for us and explained to us that we would most likely be back every month now. And we left.
We got home and I put the pictures on the fridge and then tried to make dinner and kept saying over and over 'oh my god oh my god' In between tears and trying to make sense of it all with Aaron.. I came to realise my dream of a home birth was shattered - In Ontario I don't believe you are 'allowed' to birth twins at home in the care of a midwife... I could be wrong but regardless, it wasn't something I was comfortable with as the risks with multiple births go up.
And we also now had to come up with a plan to make everything work financially with 3 children....Oh boy!
Not what I was expecting when I woke up that morning....
I spent the next 3 days in shock.. mourning the home birth that would never be. And trying to come to grips with our impending family of 5...
Twins @ 13 weeks 3 days
to be continued..........
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